I Feel So Alive

Inspiring Transformational Experience

Mismatched Pieces of a Puzzle.

In the beginning there is a clear path, a clear purpose.  We originally intend to follow our gut and our intuition, never compromising the standards or morals which makes us uniquely us.  We ride like knights fearlessly into the fullest expression of our destiny. 

Each of our lives is a puzzle waiting to be pieced together.  Each Puzzle piece has its place and must be arranged perfectly in order to culminate.  When we trip and fall, we are forced to look up, gasping for a breath of air only to find ourselves in a desolate prairie spinning aimlessly.  No roads, no landmarks, no guiding signs to your destiny, just you and the mismatched puzzle pieces of your life.  You wake up from your dream of passion and purpose and find that unfortunately your pieces got mixed up with everyone else’s pieces. Some pieces got dropped, you forgot what happened to others but you still have a couple of those original pieces which fit together so perfectly you maintain hope that there is something worth working towards, something out there in the distance is right, a glimmer of hope that you still have a chance.  We know there are certain pieces which we need to survive, we pick them from our surroundings and jam them into place.  A mismatched puzzle piece can be squeezed into another, the angles don’t perfectly align and as a building block it is impossible to construct on. But for now it fulfills its role, you got it in.  A temporary solution.  A band aid.  When you realize you have fallen off your path and that your puzzle just is jammed, forced and hodgepodged together it looks terrible, but it feels worse.  It is all wrong.  You know this because you are stuck.  The stars stopped aligning long ago.  You have the pieces but they are not your pieces.  There are certain things you need in life, you have them, in theory, but they are not uniquely yours, they don’t belong to your puzzle.   Getting by, going through the motions, but always wondering… WHY?  Jam squeeze, push, prod, cut, snip nope they still don’t fit, and we force on because we need these elements in our puzzle of life, in our puzzle of progress.  Your puzzle is a mess, it has not come together to look like anything worthwhile.  You might rationalize it by saying it’s a Picasso, but get real, it is not.  FUCK.  Now what?

Strip off the miss matched pieces.  The pieces that don’t fit won’t get you anywhere.  Throw them out, undress to your core, to those first few pieces that are uniquely you and start building again.  

DRM

Life Is A Shit Sandwich. Eat It. Or Starve.

How do you handle life when you are served a shit sandwich, there is nothing else on the menu and you need to eat? 

Add some Franks Hot Sauce and chow down.  

For weeks I had been eagerly anticipating my first vacation in 4 months.  5 days in NY with my friends and family, something I am sincerely missing here in California.  All packed and ready to go I punched my confirmation number into the “carry on only” kiosk.  “Unable to process ticket” the kiosk kept telling me.  What the fuck is going on?  I come to find out that I had somehow booked my ticket for July not June.  It would cost $700 dollars to change my flight but they would waive the $200 change fee.  How nice of them.  On top of a $600 ticket that wasn’t going to happen.  I was back on the “Marin Airporter” Bus headed to the small boat I live in which I desperately needed to escape.  It felt like a nightmare, I kept thinking I would wake up.  This morning I did wake up, with my shit sandwich waiting for me.

I have a couple choices at this point.  Sulk or get on with it.  I sulked enough in the 45 minute bus ride home last night.   I actually cried.  Sort of nice, it has been a while. 

Things don’t always go our way.  Life is hard, then you die.  It’s the last thing we want to hear when it is happening but it’s the truth.  It is ok to feel the pain, disappointment and anger but we can’t dwell in it.  eat the sandwich, digest it and pass it. It is time to make the best of what we have when we have it.

-DRM

The Secret To Getting Anything You Want

The most important person in your life is the person right in front of you.  So simple yet so hard to honor.  Being fully engaged with the person in front of you, whether you want to be engaged with them or not can have a profound effect on how you are perceived and the future fruits of that relationship. 

The truth of the matter is our greatest interest is actually self-interest.  Therefor if you treat the person you are with as the most important person in your life you are feeding that persons self-interest, making that person automatically indebted and grateful to you.  By treating the person you are engaging with respect and 100% of your attention you reinforce their core belief that they are the most important person.  There is nothing wrong with having this outlook.  Of course “I” am the most important person to me.  Of course you are the most important person to you.  The person you are talking to is not the most important person to you, but if you act like it you will win their favor forever.   They will love you and respect you, listen to you and tell everyone about you because you treated them with the respect and attention that they so badly desire, but so rarely receive.  To feel wanted, to feel listened to and to feel respected, there is little more satisfying than that. 

I urge you, give 100% of yourself to every person you are with, and to every conversation you have, just watch what happens.  Treat each person you encounter like they are actually the person you respect most in life.  Everyone wants the same thing, give it to them and they will repay the favor 100 times over.    

-DRM

Do The Right Thing #DTRT

The theory behind my life is simple but sound.  “Do The Right Thing”.  The full saying is actually, “do the right thing, if you can’t do the right thing, don’t fuck up”.  The saying was taught to be by a great man, my first boss, a real “man’s man”, and an influence I desperately needed in my teens.  He taught me to work hard, to suck it up and do what needed to be done when it needed doing.  In response to my questions there was often the simple response, “Do the right thing”.  It proved to be the best answer to every and any question. 

Doing the right thing does not mean following every rule, making the correct decisions every time, it does not mean being perfect or right every time.  It is a guide line to life.  It is the 10 commandments simplified into four neat and understandable words.  It is do what needs to be done and do it the best you can.  It means, even if it is harder, requires more effort, more time or a personal sacrifice, if it is the way something needs or should to be done, do it.  It means, suck it up, it means take the risk and it means do what the other person is not willing to do. It means don’t take a short cut unless in that particular situation a short cut is should be taken.   

By living this way you inherently will lead a life you are proud of.  You can be confident in every action and in every sentence because you know it’s the right thing.  It can be your core compass.  Your guiding light.  Four simple but sound words which can change your life forever.    Do The Right Thing.

-DRM

Act As If

Emotions can be all consuming.  Feeling such as fear, sadness, joy and nervousness and awkwardness can be all consuming.  They are interior conditions though.  Just like our thoughts, which don’t have to be spoken or heard by anyone else, no one needs to see your emotion.  We don’t have to act out our emotion for the world to see.  Imagine the reaction if your friends and co-workers could hear all your thoughts for a day!  It is the same with emotions except that we act out or emotions physically for others to interpret.  So the suggestion is to “act as if”.  Act as if everything was good, as if you feel confident, strong, mature, happy, act as if you were the person you want to show up as.  Define and design that person in advance.  Does that person smile?  Talk with authority? Walk tall?  How exactly do you want to be perceived?  I am not suggesting that you are fake, I am suggesting that you don’t show all your cards all at once.  The true magic behind acting as if lies in what happens if you continue in this behavior.  Eventually you become confident, strong, happy, and successful, you become the person you are personifying.  Your actions will manifest into your feelings.  Through your action you will start to feel the way you act.  We have control over our actions, our reactions our posture, our smile and most importantly our words.  Shape and be conscious of what you have control over and you will find yourself becoming and feeling like the person you strive to be.

-DRM

What Makes You Come Alive?

Are you conscious of your actions, path and direction?  Is there a goal in mind or are you just drifting through the motions of a passive existence?  If you put in half the effort which you currently exert to avoid and suppress your passion into discovering it, your life would become fulfilling, exciting and truly rewarding.  

You may work hard and put in great effort but none of that matters if it is focused in the wrong direction.  With each day you work further down the wrong road.  Eventually ending up in the completely wrong place without enough time to get back to where you were meant to be.  If you find yourself accelerating down the wrong street STOP, assess the situation, turn around and make a change.  Isn’t that obvious?  It is hard to back track, to start over, to begin again but, it’s easier then never doing it at all. 

Why not?  Self-discovery begins where you comfort zone ends.  Push yourself.  Do what is uncomfortable.  Stop dreaming it, fantasizing of it, and making excuses of why you can’t and just do it.

It is not too late to take the reins back.  Every day you wait is a day wasted. Why wait at all?  

“Ask yourself what makes you come alive and then go do it.  Because what the world needs is people who have come alive” – Howard Thurman. 

-DRM

Passion Will Save You

“In almost any subject, your passion for the subject will save you.  If you care enough for a result, you will most certainly attain it.   If you wish to be good, you will be good.  If you wish to be rich, you will be rich, if you wish to be learned, you will be learned. Only then you must really wish these things and wish them well exclusiveness and not wish one hundred other incompatible things just as strongly” – William James, Harvard’s most distinguished Professor of Psychology.   

Success vs Failure

Success is the progressive realization of a worthy goal or the pursuit of a worthy ideal.  It is not necessarily achieving that goal as society might commonly define it, but it is the process and the effort in the journey towards that destination.  It is having the courage to spend your most valuable resource, time, working towards the thing that matters most to you.  Your dream. Your vision. Your purpose.   

Failure is continuous effort without personalized focus, direction or intention.  It is exerting aimless energy every day because you have not put in the effort to discover who you really are and what you really need.  Or worse, knowing who you are and what you need but not making the effort to take the risk of achieving that.  There is no greater failure than ignoring your highest potential or purpose because you chose to believe your imagined and meaningless excuses.

The first step in being successful is having a goal, a dream or an ideal clearly defined.  It is discovering and more importantly honoring what is most important to you.  It is realizing that anything is possible as long as you move in that direction.  You can literally have anything you want.  It is truly simple.  Continuously move in the direction of the thing you desire and you will eventually have it.   Just by moving in that direction you are already successful. 

-DRM

Scared of Yourself?

Your subconscious mind always knows what is right and what is wrong, unfortunately most people have learned to block out that mind.  In order to hear and understand that voice it needs to be developed and nurtured, trusted and grown.  Your internal voice is a personal compass for navigating the course and challenges of life.  Unfortunately we have the power to ignore this internal system.  An intangible feeling of being lost or somehow separate is a warning sign that you have disconnected from this flawless internal guidance.  

Your intuition and inner voice gets stronger with practice and trust, but your ability to silence that voice gets stronger with practice as well.  The more you practice excuses, the more you justify your actions and worse, in-actions, to the people around you, the better you become at deceiving to yourself.  There is no knob to turn up the volume of your inner guidance.  It takes time and a leap of faith to develop.  It takes trying that different behavior, experimenting with an alternative solution, and doing the thing that keeps nagging at you, but you keep ignoring because the way you know is easier and safer.  Every time you trust that gut feeling it grows stronger and grows louder.  It is always right.  It is always the truth. 

Are you going to take the easier and safer way through your whole life or take back control of your life?  Stop being scared of yourself and try listening to yourself.  By taking inspired actions you will gain strength, a feeling of connectedness and a wholeness you have not experienced since childhood.   

-DRM

Might As Well Shoot Up

“Waiting” is just as toxic and dangerous as shooting meth.  Both result in the same outcome, a wasted life.  We don’t often find ourselves regretting the things we do, but instead the things we don’t do.   The good news is, like shooting meth, regret is a choice and is completely avoidable.  “Don’t Wait”, by living with and fully committing to this guiding principle you can have a life free of regret. 

The clock is ticking, time waits for no man, and now is the time to take action.  Years will slip by and opportunities will be lost, in fact opportunities have already been lost.  At this point it is too late for something.  What have you let slip through your fingers?  What dream did you have that is now lost because you rationalized “why not now”?  Sit with that…

You let fear stop you.  Don’t let it happen again.  This is your one chance.  

Don’t wait.   

-DRM